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Ok, so I was kinda down that I didn’t get to do my yoga yesterday, but I think I made up for it last nite!!!!!!!!

Here is what I did: 150 crunches, several pilates abs exercises, then did my sets of pushups with 2 minutes of cardio in between. I had started with sets of 10 pushups and that got too easy, so I upped it to 20 at a time. Due to my sore shoulder, I did half and half girl pushups and full ones. But I can’t believe I did that many!! My shoulders feel it!!

Then I did my BL Bootcamp this morning, and I feel wonderful!!

Our poor coffeepot is cracked, poor Ted no Java today. I am gonna stop and get a new one tonite.

So how are you??

I hope you are all having a great day!! I go see my therapist tonite, so I will try and get to blogs, but I have to leave early. Love you all!

What would I do with out friends??

I was real down last nite, and sure that you all were tired of hearinf about my grief. But again, you all lifted me up.

I have to give a shout out to Lori and Nancy, I was being texted by Nancy and im’d by Lori last nite, they got me laughing and smiling. You guys rock!

Well, Ted got home ok, he is glad to be home, and I am sooo glad too.

Didn’t realize how much I missed him till I saw him.

He is so sweet, now this is a guy who is not very demonstrative, but he got me this sweet little vase with hearts on it and a small box of heart shaped candies. I was blown away that he even thought of it!!

Made my nite!

Anyways, I have a meeting with the minister for the memorial Saturday evening, she will help me plan everything. Thank God.

Tired today, and no workout since I got to bed so late, but will do my crunches, pilates, and pushup/cardio tonite. Love you guys!

Went to my grief support group. I have to be honest, I am trying to put on a good face. But I feel like I am slipping. This going thru mom and dad’s stuff really put me in an emotiional tailspin. I cry alot. I miss mom and dad so much, it is like a huge black hole in my heart. I am having to let go of things that I have had around me forever. Everything little thing has a memory attached, and it is tearing me up.

I don’t have the desire to pig out, and I am really obsessive about working out, but it is like I don’t dare be quiet. It hurts too much.

Sorry for this depressing blog. I don’t know how to go on without the 2 best friends of my life, mom and dad. I can’t even look at their pictures without crying. I had to take a picture of them to group tonite. Good lord, I am falling apart, tonite was the worst.

I needed to blog it out, if this bothers anyone, please skip this. I just needed to vent.

Thanks for putting up with me. I love you guys, please pray for me.

How are you all?

I am very tired today, but did my bootcamp, dvd.

I need coffee! None in our office, someone let it run 0ut, gasp!

How are you all? I got my meals all planned, determined to have a good week.

I pick up Ted tonite at 11. Way too late for me, but that was the best they could do, think I will take a power nap tonite.

Well, have some bad news, mom’s sewing machine is gone. I think it may have been out to repairs, but mom’s memory was so bad, and no receipt. I hate it, but nothing I can do.

Anyways, big hugs to you all. Have a great day!

So how are you today??

I am so proud of our Wildcats!! 39.4!!!! This week!

Well, I am doing good, just talked to the guy who is gonna move mom’s china cabinet, we wil do it next Saturday, he had to stomach flu or food poisoning this weekend. I really didn’t want to do it today, sore and tired. I am gonna go over and get one last thing, my mom has this antique black and gold Singer sewing maching with table. I don’t sew, but I know she wanted me to have it. Dad bought it for her when they were first married. So one more time.

I have to say even though it is hard to go thru there things, it is a comfort to have their stuff around me. My little storage room is packed full. I have to get a bigger one rented by the end of the month, but Ted will be back then to help  me move the stuff. I wouldn’t get a bigger one, but we have mom and dad’s huge gas grill that we want to keep for when we move to a bigger place.

So that is what is up with me.

Going to buy a few groceries later and take it kind of easy.

Ted comes home tomorrow nite, yay!

Well let me tell you, shopping IS therapeutic !! I went and used my challenge quarters at the Good will!! (Thanks, Debra)

I bought 4 tops, a comfy nite gown, some shoes, a purse, a pretty little teacup and 3 movies! Was fun, even though I was tired!

So I cam home, took a shower, put on my nitegown, had dinner, and made myself a cup of tea!

I didn’t do so well at dinner, I did have 2 helpings, but at least it wasn’t binging on cookies!

Well time to read blogs, You all have a great Sunday!!

Hope you all are having a great one!

well, been a busy day, Had a healthy breakfast of Kashi and strawberries, then went to storage and I found ALL the things I wanted to find, so I am done. All that is left is to move the china cabinet here. Waiting for the guy to call to see when we can do that. I would almost rather do it tomorrow or next weekend, I am pooped. Was up late since I couldn’t sleep. Had mom and dad’s storage on my mind. But I got up and did 50 minutes of yoga, and I will do my crunches tonite.

But the storage is done, so now have to write out the obit and do the program, so things are finally getting done. This has been a long, drawn out process.

Well I am proud of myself, I wanted sooo bad to go and have something for lunch that was not op, I was getting in the “poor little me” mode. But I made myself go to Subway and get their low fat teriyaki chicken on whole wheat, was really good! I had some baked chips with it, so I am op today! I will have some leftover ground turkey hamburger helper tonite, and my calores will be around 1300.

So how are you all?

Hey congrats to Anj, she got her bike, woohoo!! She texted me and Nancy texted me that she ran a mile!!! Go her!!

Any hoo, need to check messages, love you guys!

Well, I sure missed you all. I had to leave early to take Ted to the airport.

Then I came home and cleaned house like a banshee, then I worked out. Real tired.

Thanks for all your support yesterday, you all are the best.

Well have some great news! Got mom’s memorial scheduled, it will be on 2/28 for sure, so next week will put the obit in. Thank God this is finally getting done. Just got off the phone with the minister, she is truly awesome and turning into a close friend.

Well, in spite of my not eating or working out as good this week I lost a pound! Woo hoo!

So I am gonna take this weekend to self collect, still have to finish up the storage tomorrow, too.

But I needed this time to myself. Plus, I have all of you!

Anyways, I feel better, and I love you, and I will try to read as many blogs as I can!

Well making this brief, busy at work, shorthanded again.

I am doing ok, I think, but they spoke of something called “greif bursts” at group, where you just break donw for no real reason, well I had a bad one last nite, after church, could hardly drive home. So I was too worn out after to do any crunches, and I had let myself get too hungry (just had fruit for dinner) and I hit the peanut butter on 2 english muffins, bad I know.

Any how, back on today, and I did 50 minutes of weight loss yoga, yay!

How are you all, hugs!

Looks like mom’s services will be on Sunday, 3/1. I should have the exact address of the church this afternoon. So I want to place the obit by tomorrow.

My friend Martha, who just lost her mom is back at work today. I feel for her.

Well, as for me, I am feeling pretty good! I did a 45 min bootcamp workout today, and boy did it put my spirits back up where they belong.

Lol, I loved the responses I got to my blog yesterday, you all are the best!

Doing good today, avoiding Valentine’s day goodies.

OH and Ted is teaching me how to build my own web page, so maybe I will create one with my story!! Just learning, so it may take awhile.

Ok, need to run and check email, love you all!

I have to give a shout out to Anj, Lori, Nicole, Nancy, Debbie and Tracey. They make up our diet tribe. I was feeling like this this morning:

But they picked me right up! I think all the stress of the last few months finally got me, I had to really force myself to do just 35 minutes of yoga today, and I just felt myself slipping, mood wise., and then I got here, and boy did they show me the love!! So, I had to thank them! This is for you, ladies!!

Anyways for all of you out there, know I love you all. If it was not for you, I know I would be severely depressed by now.

I did slip and eat one of those big cookies last nite at group. But at least it wasn’t the whole plate.

Back on track today. Love you all and have a truly blessed day.