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Good morning. How are you all?

I am slowly doing better, but still have a lot of crud in my lungs, was up last nite at Midnite hacking.

I am going to the dr today, too.

But I am reall concerned about Ted, he caught the bug, he is so sick, and the poor guy doesn’t have medical insurance. So we have to treat this at home. I did tell him not to smoke right now, but I don’t think that will stick. He gets bronchitis real easy, and we don’t want it to turn into pneumonia for either of us.

Can I say BOY!! are men grumpy when sick, I do feel sorry for him, but jeez, us women have to keep going when we are sick. He got mad at me for doing the laundry on Sunday, said I should have let him do it(but I know his time table, we would have still been doing it at midnite). He said I got my germs all over it. Maybe true, but it is airborne too.

Ok, there, I vented, I love him and really do want to see him better soon, especially before we knock each other out! LOL,. just kidding.

I sure miss my workouts, funny to hear me say that.

I can’t talk about BL, yet, Nicole will wallop me, lol.

But it was a good one, but frustrating is all I will say.

Ok, need to run and read email, will read as many blogs as I can later, I have to leave early for the dr! Hugs!

I believe we should pray for him whether we voted for him or not. I want  to show my support

So how are we today? I feel a little better, but have lots of gunk in me, I prob need antibiotic.

On the home front, mom’s pastor can’t do her service, due to his health problems, heart and asthma. Please pray for him.

He recommended the senior pastor, so I should know by tomorrow if he can do it, so I will finally get the obit placed.

Well I have to share something with you all. It hit me this morning that the time has come to stop feeling sorry for myself.

To appreciate the heritage mom and dad left me and to start living in it.

Also, to never stop being thankful for what I DO have.

1. My Lord and Saviour, my salvation

2. I have the memories of an awesome mom and dad, and no one can take that from me.

3. Awesome friends (that includes all of you), and a very suppportive boyfriend.

4. A (for the most part) healthy body that I can use to work out hard and help others.

5. A warm place to live

6. New found family, albeit far away

7. A good job, even in these time of recession

So, I am working on counting my blessings!!

So what are YOU thankful for?

Have a great day! 

But I am here. Thanks for all your kind words yesterday, and yes, I am going to respect this and rest. I do have a dr appt on Wednesday too.

So no workouts till my chest is better, but I am going to try some yoga tonite, just to help keep me moving.

I am also concentrating on sticking to what I know is right and healthy. I did not write it down today, because my head is just too stuffed to think. But I have done this long enough I know what to stay away from.

Eating alot of chicken soup and drinking orange juice, and NO SMOKING. I tried to smoke one yesterday and actually felt like I was gonna black out at the computer, so no more of that for now.

I wish that when I get healthy I wouldn’t want to smoke. Right now I don’t even want them.

Enough of my griping, how are you all? I hope all well and going after your goals. We can all do this, and this for me is just a temporary obstacle, that won’t last long.

Oh, and I got my new dvds, they look great, Ali, Michelle, Vicky, Heba and Bill are on there.

Ok, I need to go check email, will be back later, hugs!

Good morning buddies. Well I am sick as a dog, came down with this on Friday. I ma not surprised as this is my body’s usual way of reacting to stress, in fact I expected it. I think my mind and and emotion have a shut off valve, can so I get sick in order to let my body rest. Weird. So no workout since Thursday, and my eating has been bad. I started out good yesterday, and didn’t load up on sugar, but just ate more than I should, ending up with burgers last nite, since I was too sick to cook. Trying harder today, my only indulgence will be to allow my self to drink orange juice. But I feel myself slumping, and I do npt want that, so can I get a kick in the butt? I can’t do my cardio, till my chest quits hurting, but as soon as the fever is gone, I will do floor work, and try my yoga dvd. I got my new Biggest loser dvds yesterday, so that will help motivate me to get back ion the game.

I am concerned ’cause my chest hurts so bad, I used my inhaler this morning. I DO have a dr appt on Wednesday, too. but if it gets real bad will call him before then. So I am not pushing it. I have been pushing it for a while, feeling like I had to Superwoman, and I think this is God’s way of making me slow down.

All I am going to do today is laundry and rest. All I did yesterday was rest.

I did want to tell you, that I tried the thing of saying “stop” when my worries started to hit me. It does work, and then I forced my self to pray and even talk abit to mom and dad. Was hard, but you know? I felt better.

Anyways, thanks for all the support, I am still here, and will continue to be. I love you guys.

Ok, now please kick my butt into gear, ok?

A good friend told me yesterday to not be afraid to share my feelings here. She said this is what it is for. I know that is right, but I was tired of writing sad blogs. I am sure you all get sick of that.

I am not feeling well today, sore throat, overslept, no workout, and work is a real pain today.

Went to my therapist last nite. I bawled all the way thru. I am more angry at things than I want to admit. I feel like mom and dad left me, like I was just getting to know my mom as a friend/woman instead of just mom and then she left me. My logical mind tells me that is not so, but my feelings feel like I was abandoned. So, I know my OCD is kicking in and Ted and I discussed my tendency to worry about the same things over and over, so I need to work on that. So I cried myself to sleep last nite, and my eating today has been awful, sweets big time.

So there it is, I fail at times and am human. But I do love you all very much and I had to get this off my chest. Thanks for your support and listening.

Hi! First of all, I will prob not be able to read blogs today. Leaving work early for my therapy appt. So don’t think I am neglecting you, ok?

I think the 5 htp is making me catch up on my sleep! I have been sleeping so deeply I can’t get up on time! Good thing for Jillian’s 20 minute workouts!

Food wise doing well. The medicine kind of upset my stomach so I make sure to take it when I eat. Much better now.

Was doing the jumprope challenge, but my back has started to act up, so laying off that for a few, still doing my ab work!

Ok gotta run, love you guys!

I just heard she is having surgery Friday!! Jane please know we are all praying for you and love you!!

Still doing well today, did my cardio max, and staying op.

I want so bad to gab about Biggest Loser, but I can’t ’cause some people on my team can’t watch it till this weekend, lol.

But did you all see it? All I can say is OMG!!

Well, have to make this brief, love you all, have a great day!

Thanks for all the wonderful birthday wishes!! Love you guys!

Ok, I want to share something:

One of my good buddies suggested I try this for my depression: called 5 HTP

Here is a description:

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5-Hydroxytryptophan
IUPAC name	2-amino-3- (5-hydroxy-1H-indol-3-yl) propanoic acid
Identifiers
CAS number	56-69-9
PubChem	144
MeSH	5-Hydroxytryptophan
SMILES	[show] C1=CC2=C(C=C1O)C (=CN2)CC(C(=O)O)N
ChemSpider ID	388413
Properties
Molecular formula	C11H12N2O3
Molar mass	220.225
Except where noted otherwise, data are given for materials in their standard state (at 25 °C, 100 kPa) Infobox references

5-Hydroxytryptophan or 5-HTP is a naturally occurring amino acid, a precursor to the neurotransmitter serotonin and an intermediate in tryptophan metabolism. It is marketed in the United States and other countries as a dietary supplement for use as an antidepressant, appetite suppressant, and sleep aid, however, according to a 2001 meta-analysis, insufficient high quality research has been done to establish that it is efficacious.^[1]

^{So, I called my dr, and He approved it. I will follow up with him next week. But I have taken it 2 days in a row, and I already feel better! I think it is making me sleep deeper, as I have gotten up too late to do anything more than a 20 min workout, so I do Jillian’s, as you know, she is tough.}

^{But, I feel great! Much better!}

^{Just don’t anyone take it on an empty stomach, I found that out the hard way.}

^{Ok this is funny, so I tried jumproping last nite, figured it would be a peice of cake, since I was so good at it as a kid. Well, not good now! LOL. I am sure I looked like a fool, but at least I got cardio in!}

^{Well need to run, have a great day!}

I can’t get away from it, lol, They even gave me a flashing crown at work.

But you know? I feel so much better than I did even in my 20’s!! Way more friends too!

So I guess not bad for 50! Not sure what 50 is supposed to feel like, but I sure didn’t think it was this good.

Ok I appreciate all the feedback on the med issue. I have decided to hold off for now. I am taking 5Htp, and even though I just started it again last nite, I do seem to feel better. Part of me just couldn’t go with the idea of taking something artificial. If I think I do need it, I will, but my inner voice tells me to try this first.

Was better with my eating last nite, had a salad. And even though I woke up late, had a good session with Jillian this morning.

Today is a good day, have all my meals planned. Even though I am cooking a special meal for me and my honey tonite.

Thanks for all the birthday wishes, love you!

How are you all?

Well yesterday was busy. Had my therapy appt in the morning. Please pray for me, she thinks I need to go on some light meds for awhile, not sure how I feel about that. But I do know I have been having some physical symptoms that I know are related to my emotions. She related it to a coffee cup, no matter how big, if you keep pouring in and not take out eventually you will get burned.

Buddies, I do NOT want to burn out or go down that road to depression, been there, done that. So I will do what I need to to get thru this. Just pray I make the right decision, and that I am put on something with very minimal side effects. I am very drug sensitive.

But the emotions are really affecting my eating, Last nite was pizza and wings. no workout, I was exhausted.

Did get my haircut, is real cute.

My facial was good, but of course, she tried to sign me up in Mary Kay, sounds good, but not right now.

Well Buddies, I will be 50 tomorrow, can honestly say for the mpst part I love where I am at, I feel better than I ever have. I promise to myself and you all I will do what ever it takes to continue. Love you guys!