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 Running, running! Good thing I feel better. We are shorthanded at work, have 2 people on our team out.

But THANK YOU for encouraging me to try the Celexa!! I  feel more like myself than I have in a long time! I was even smiling and singing in the car! It doesn’t bother me to drive it as much now.

So, I couldn’t do my yoga today, I think the T stands were a bit much to do while I was sick, so I am gonna back off and do the bootcamp cardio and baby my shoulder and only use 5 lb weights till it is better.

Nancy is gonna help me with my food intake and workouts too! Yippee! Ted and I think my weight gain is muscle, 141 today, ugh. Nancy thinks so too. I want to up the intensity in my workouts, so the days I do that, I will eat at least 1600 calories, with more protein.

I want to do this the right way.

So how are all of you?

Nicole and her friend Heidi and I had a great time last nite, the food was awesome, lots of salad choices. I was so proud of Nicole, she wanted a brownie, but chose a sugar free cookie instead.

I had one, and some low fat chili and some focaccia(sp?) bread, was so good.

I feel GREAT today!! Love you guys!

Happy Birthday, you awesome wildcat!!

Here’s for Nicky chocolate, lol!

How are you all??

Well first, I want to say Happy Birthday to Nicole!! She is ummm 18?? Yeah, that is what Nancy said, hehe. She and I are going out for her Birthday tonite, eating at Sweet Tomatoes! I have never been there, so I am looking forward to it.

Well, I may have gained a pound this week, I checked again. I need to get back to my cardio for sure. I think I will start it on Saturday, my bootcamp one.

How are you all?

I had a great session with my therapist, she said I am coming along great, wants me to write a letter to mom and dad separately, I think that will be good, she is having me do alot of writing.

Ted is still coming along slowly, still grumpy, so I just let the bear hibernate, lol.

Church was awesome, I like the study on the “The Seven Places Jesus Shed His Blood.”

So (now why does it print like that) I am doing very good today. I feel good and more calm. We may have a good friend of mom and dad’s do the service too, still waiting to hear back from the church.

Ok, that is is for me. Need to run, be back later! Hugs!

This was emailed to me this morning…

(Song) What a mighty God we serve, what a mighty God we serve, the angels bow before him heaven and earth adore him, what a mighty God we serve.

Ephesisans 1:7-8 To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved. In whom we have redemption through his blood the forgiveness of sins according to the riches of his graceWord of the Day: Don’t run ahead of God. Let him direct your steps. He has plans, he has time, God’s clock in never early or late. It always strikes on time!

Ok, I get the message… I need to stop spinning my wheels and wait on the Lord.

Still no word on who will perform mom’s service, but if I don’t hear today, I will contact the lady preacher I talked to who offered to do it, I checked her credentials and her beliefs and I am so impressed!

Doing good on the diet front, Ted and I are coming along still have a cough, but I understand that takes awhile to go away.

Loving the yoga!! Only had time to do 30 minutes this morning, but am I sore! I peeked at the scale, and I was up a pound, can that be from muscle? I have been watching my intake like a hawk.

So how are you all?

I am feelinf more at peace this morning then I have in awhile, wonder if that is the meds kicking in? It has only been a week.

Going to a Bible study at church tonite, invited by a friend of mom’s.

That is it for me, Love you guys!

Well real quick, the meeting was good and Ted is better , me too. Thanks for the prayers.

This is what we dicussed last nite:

• I have the right to be sad and to cry without worrying what others think.
• I have the right to choose whom I will talk to about my grief. It is not my fault if the feelings of others are hurt because of my choice.
• I have the right to make decisions for myself. My grief doesn’t mean that I don’t want to be involved.
• I have the right to mourn the loss in my own way, even if it is different from others.
• I have the right to be angry because my loved one has died. My anger is part of the grieving process.
• I have the right to get outside help for myself. Sometimes I need to talk with someone who is not involved with my grief.
• I have the right to take care of myself and to find ways that help me cope with my grief.
• I have the right to enjoy my life without feeling guilty.

A very good  meeting, and I feel good about it.

I even resisted the goodies they had!

Ok gotta run, love you all!

Thanks for all the prayers, Ted is much better, still has a cough, but I see definite improvement, which is a good thing, because he is stubborn and refuses to go see the doc.

I am better too, still a cough, so I am sticking to my yoga till that is better.

I did my yoga today, I feel so good after I do it!

Well, my grief support group was real good, very emotional but I am glad I went. I did alot of crying and so did all the others, we talked about the symptoms of grief and there was a whole page listing them and I have about 90 % of them. They also gave us something called “The Mourners code of rights” This is it in a nutshell:

• I have the right to be sad and to cry without worrying what others think.
• I have the right to choose whom I will talk to about my grief. It is not my fault if the feelings of others are hurt because of my choice.
• I have the right to make decisions for myself. My grief doesn’t mean that I don’t want to be involved.
• I have the right to mourn the loss in my own way, even if it is different from others.
• I have the right to be angry because my loved one has died. My anger is part of the grieving process.
• I have the right to get outside help for myself. Sometimes I need to talk with someone who is not involved with my grief.
• I have the right to take care of myself and to find ways that help me cope with my grief.
• I have the right to enjoy my life without feeling guilty.

So I think this class will be good, goes for 6 weeks.

Plus, a side note, I was sitting right in front of a bowl of chocolates, and they had cookies too, and all I had was coffee!

And we may have a pastor to do the service, not sure on that, yet. Love you all, have a good day!

Well, no luck with the pastor’s son, to do the memorial. So they are trying the other pastor’s son, this is getting ridiculous. I can’t place the obit till we get this settled.

Ok enough of that, and I will NOT eat over it.

Tonite I am going to a grief support group, my first one. A bit nervous about that.

Also, couldn’t do the storage for mom and dad’s stuff yet, will do that Saturday.

Buddies, Ted is very sick, I almost had to take him to the er last nite, his cough sounds bad. He has no insurance, so it is hard for him to get medical care. We have been treating it at home.

He is supposed to go see his daughter in a few weeks for the weekend, I want him to be well enough to go.

How are you all? Yeah, I’m venting abit.

I was so tired last nite after shopping and all, plus waking up at 2 am with Ted, I slept till 6:05! So no time for a workout, but I will do my crunches tonite!

Still sore from the yoga, lol.

But no binge last nite, had a grilled chicken salad, was real good.

Ok, need to check emails, will be back later, love ya!

Hi you all! Well I have had an interesting weekend!

Lynne and I did go out on Friday nite, we had mexican, and then went shopping. I found a gorgeous Dolphin picture for my bathroom, too. Then we went  and coffee with some ladies from the cat shows.

Lol, I have to tell you this, I found this Hello Kitty pillow/wall hanging at the thrift store we were at , it it supposed to go over a baby’s crib, but I wanted it for the Wildcats, so I bought it and keep it on my pillow, helps me get up in the morning to work out, I see that, and think of my team and up I go!

So, I cleaned out my closet and drawers yesterday. Got rid of 6 huge bags of clothes, and I still have plenty. People have been giving me all kinds of stuff, and a friend gave me some size 6 jeans which I can almost get into, I am gonna work for it!

So I did the whole Biggest loser Yoga dvd, don’t let anyone tell you yoga is easy, I am VERY sore today! But it is a good one, and I am gonna do that everyday till I can go back to the cardio, then alternate. I love it, and Ali looks awesome!

Well, slowly getting better, kind of overdid it yesterday. And I got this horrible craving for peanut butter last nite, and I gave in. I couldn’t get it out of my mind! Anyone had that happen? What did you do?

So, well Ted is still sick, but some better, and I am better but still coughing. This bug is nasty.

Please pray we find a pastor that can do mom’s memorial, The pastor’s son may do it, and I should know by tomorrow.

Ok, you all have a great Sunday, hugs!

I sure appreciate all the feedback I got yesterday, I wish I had time to give a shout out to all of you. I was so afraid you would be disappointed in me. I was disappointed in myself at first, but a very good buddy this morning TOTALLY put my mind at ease! You know who you are

Anyways, good day for me, wearing some new skinny black jeans, and a cute top, and I lost the weight I had pickup a few days ago, plus I did level 1 of my new BL yoga dvd! I love it, but I will have to work on my coordination, lol!

Well, I am some better, on the 3rd day of antibitics. Going out for a belated bd girl’s nite tonite with a good friend.

I will have to say this med thing is a total readjustment of my thinking, and I owe you all a big one for helping me with that.

Ok, need to check emails, will be back later! Love ya!

Not sure if this is admitting defeat or not, but I let my dr put me on a light antidepressant called Celexa. Only 10 mg, he says real light and minimum side effects. Not very happy about it, but I will do what is necessary, I have been coming abit unraveled.

Plus, he put me on antibiotics and said no cardio till my chest clears up, but I can do wieghts and yoga, yay!

Poor Ted, he kept up both up with his coughing last nite, so I slept in this morning.

But, I think I will still show a loss this week, yay!!

So this is to all of you having trouble drinking that water, chug a lug, it works!

Love you guys!

Oh and AJ, we do NOT like to take care of sick man babies, lol!