kamaperry

Christmas is almost here, can you feel it? I expected to be all sad, and sometimes, I am but I can feel the undercurrent of magic in the air. See, I have already been given so many good gifts, all of you, my health, a good job (that is still doing well), a home, pets, I do still have my mom, I have a loving bf, and daughter, too.

I am doing ok. I had my therapy appt yesterday. She says it hugely due to all of this support that I am dealing with my grief so well. See how important you all are?

I want you all to stop and realize what a huge thing we are part of here, on Buddyslim(thanks, Dr Marc), we are helping people change their lives foe the better, you can’t get better than that. Some times I literally get goosebumps when I think about it.

Well I maintained this week, but I am glad. We did have our Christmas party at work, thank God is is cheat day. I got some gorgeous candlesticks, and some goodies to take home to Ted.

Got my bonus, too.  Going to do the rest of my shopping tonite, and tomorrow will get my tat!! Woohoo! I will have pics taken to show you all!

Ok, time to run, but please still pray for mom that she will be healed of this depression and realize she still is needed and has reason to live, ok?

Love you all!! 

Good morning!

I am getting there, just got a couple more things to get, may do a little baking next week, on my days off. Not much, though, don’t want to eat too much.

Well, saw mom last nite, she does not looke good, so please still pray for her. I am gonna get her a little tree and take it up.

We will prob have Christmas there with her. They do a family dinner.

As for me, doing good, still working out, am planning on buying some 8 lb weights for myself for Christmas, AND I’m getting my first tattoo this Saturday! I am so excited, wanted one for years! Getting a dolphin on my shoulder.

Well I need to run, hope you all are well, and I love you!

Hi! How are you all? Thanks for all the comments yesterday!

Well doing ok today, mom got moved out of the hospital and back to the nursing home, so she is better.

I am going to take some downtime tonite. Tomorrow is Ted’s BD and I want to get his gift wrapped. The old man will be 38, lol.

So how are you all? Almost ready for Christmas? I have almost all mine done, not doing as much this year, but I did get Ted the Guitar Hero World Tour, that is kinda for both of us.

Doing ok on my eating, didn’t stuff yesterday at lunch, yay!

Did My 20 minutes with Jillian this morning, was gonna do an hour, but my sweetie wanted to cuddle, and  I wasn’t going to pass that up!

Well gotta run, Love you all!

Boy I hate having to wait so long to get on here. How are you?

Thank you a million times over for all the responses to my blog. I SERIOUSLY need to get caught up here, I will try and read a few blogs before I go home.

But I have an announcement!! In all my frantic business this last weekend, I forgot what Sunday was: I made 3 years clean and sober on 12/14!!! Woo hooo!! You know, I don’t even miss it!! Even with all the stress, the thought of using does not even attract me!

Also, I wanted to share my thoughts on this weight/health journey a good friend asked me today how I felt about this and Buddyslim(Thanks, Nancy) I want to share it :

I feel like not only did I get healthy, but I have discovered my passion, and BS and the people there did that.

I get sad too. I want everyone to “get it”. Not sure why it happens, but until they decide it is not worth it to be sick and unhealthy, this will keep happeniing. I had to decide the payoff I was getting for being fat was not working for me anymore. It was a “lightbulb” moment for me.

When I realized I was fat, unhealthy and depressed because i CHOSE to be, boy, did it change.

But we all have to come to that, and it happens at different times for each person. I wish I had come to it earlier.

Sorry to get on a soapbox, but that is my core belief, and BS has really reinforced it. I think BS has changed alot, but in a good way, we have weathered some good and bad times and gotten stronger, I love it.

I also love my dear buddies, and I am totally hooked on this way of life, and I am a total exercise addict!

Anyways, I sure love you all, and I mean to get caught up, I haven’t forgotten you! Hugs, Kama

I hated not being here! But we got mom all moved. Her stuff is all in storage except for her sofa, 2 bookcases and her bedframe, it wouldn’t fit, so we are using it.

I am sore, and tired, but glad it is done. Got mom’s electric, phone, and paper cancelled. Glad that is done.

Mom is still in the hospital, still very sick. Not sure when she will get out.

Was very tiring and emotional. I really lost it on Friday, was at mom’s house packing by my self, and all of a sudden I just started bawling.  And again on Saturday nite, had a dream about dad,( don’t remember what) and I woke myself up crying. Our family/home has ended. I don’t have any brothers or sisters. My daughter is far away, and so our my remaining aunt and uncle.

Cousins too.

Well I bombed this weekend. I did workout as planned, but I fell off big time in my eating, 3 takeouts on Saturday, and I bought a tray of shortbread cookies because I was feeling sorry for my self. Now I have to workout big time.

Tomorrow, I will be going to an employee dinner and Friday is our Christmas party, So the best plan I have is not to stuff and workout hard.

So how are you all? I am sure I have been having withdrawals from not being here.

Oh one good thing, I got ALL my thankyou and Christmas cards out!

And I am going to go get Ted’s Christmas present tonite…. Guitar Hero for PS2, the world tour. He really wants it and after how he helped me so much, he deserves it.

Ok, time to go catch up on emails, I apologize if I don’t get to blogs yet, I can only be here a little while tonite. Love you all!

Not gonna miss out on that

Morning, Buddies!! Did you see Biggest Loser last nite? Yay for Michelle! She and Jillian literally had me bawling!!

And that challenge? What an  awesome object lesson! I sure would not want to carry my former weight?

Do you think Vicky really gets it? I think she has Bob fooled. We will see.

Anyways, down another pound!! Bouncin at 137. Want to get to 130, but not sure how long that will take being the holidays.

Did my workout with Jillian too.

Exciting news! Nancy is the the new team coordinator for the Wildcats! “Captain Kitty” Congrats, Nancy!

Update on mom, she is still in the hospital, they think she has congestive heart failure along with pneumonia, but her breathing was much better last nite when I saw her. Doing an echp on her today. Ok gotta run, love you all!

These were hanging on his back wall:

SUCCESSWhat ever your mind can conceive and believe, it will achieve. Dream great dreams and make them come true. Do it now. You are unique in all the history of the world there was never anyone else exactly like you, and in all the infinity to come there will never be another you. To accomplish great things you must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe. If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost - put foundations under them. Yes you can. Believing is magic. You can always better your best. You don’t know until you try. Nothing will become of nothing. If you don’t go out on a limb, you’re never going to get the fruit. There is no failure except in no longer trying. Hazy goals produce hazy results. Clearly define your goals. Write them down, make a plan to achieve them, set a dead line, visualize the results, and go after them. Just don’t look back unless you want to go that way. Defeat may test you; it need not stop you. If at first you don’t succeed, try another way. For every obstacle there is a solution. Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. The greatest mistake is giving up. Wishing will not bring success, but planning and a burning desire will. There is a gold mine within you from which you can extract all the necessary ingredients. Success is an attitude. Get yours right. It’s astonishing how short of a time it takes for very wonderful things to happen. Now show us the colors of your rainbow.

-SUCCESS By Barbara Smallwood & Steve KilbornAnd this one:“I promise to keep on living as if I expected to live forever. Nobody grows old by merely living a number of years. People grow old by deserting their ideals. Years ,may wrinkle the skin, but to give up interest wrinkles the soul.”How are you all? Well mom, got taken to the hospital this morning, possible heart attack. So far she is ok.Some good news, though, the nursing home says this latest change should affect her qualification for aid positively, and they told us not to pay anything.I am hanging in there, having to fight the urge to binge and/or drink right and left. But I commit to you all to do neither one. Please hold me accountable, ok?Sure love you all, I would not make it with out you

Hi all. Thanks so much for your support.

Well got mom’s stuff almost all packed up. We will move her this weekend. I prob won’t be on here from Thursday thru Monday. I am taking the days off from work to get this done.

I am so tired, but I am amping up my workouts, I need to focus on something else besides all this stuff.

Doing better with my eating, but I did have an egg nog milkshake yesterday, I just had to.

Was feeling abit sorry for myself, so I got it. Need to stop that. Anyways, I am still here.

I love you all, you help me keep sane.

ok, gotta run and post!

This has been a very hard, emotional weekend.

First, I called mom’s complex yesterday, they are evicting her. So we have to get her stuff out. The good news is her money finally came in, but she can’t go home either way, the dr won’t let her, she does have dementia and some other problems. So we got her a storage unit and have been packing her stuff up. I was there with a friend for several hours yesterday.

Then this next weekend, my friend got together a bunch of people to help us move it, mom has been in this apartment for 15 years, so you can imagine the stuff, we threw away alot of unecessary stuff yesterday. Ted is over there now working on it to give me a break.

I am so tired, got to bed late, and then I had to go to the store at 6 this morning to get more boxes.

I am so grateful to my friend and Ted for their help. And to you all for your support.

Diet wise was doing good till last nite, fell off big time at Wendy’s. I WILL do better today.

I did do an hour of Power Sculpt yesterday, and then alot of packing and carrying heavy stuff, so I hope that will help. Will go back over later today, too.

So how are you all? I lovc you guys so much!

I have to post an ode to you all, I am so richly blessed by all of you. You make me smile everyday no matter what. You all are better than any gift I could ever get!

Ok, what is new with me: first thanks for the support on what is going on with her application, I did contact her dr and he faxed me a letter which I forwarded to medical review.

Next, I contacted my storage place, and will go there tomorrow to check out sizes. They said they will waive the admin fee if we go with them since I am a long time customer, and I was referred to them by dad

tomorrow I will also be getting boxes to pack.

Whew! And trying to work, too.

I’m ok, up one pound, but I will take that for now. did my workout with Jillian this morning, too.+

My stomach is better this morning, but got real bad last nite, I got so sick I had to leave the nursing home in a rush, not sure how I made it home, but God took care.

Ok for some good stuff! My best friend gave me some gorgeous grey zip up boots, and they fit! First time ever! Plus I got some new clothes from a coworker(smalls) and some stuff for Ted all free!

So things are good and moving along, just a bit crazy, thanks so very much for the prayers!