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Not sure if I will have time to be on tomorrow. But I wanted to wish you all Happy New Year. May 2009 be the best year ever. I do know all of use really need a good year. Let’s commit to making it a healthy one. As for me, I really want to try to quit smoking as soon as things calm down, is my last hurdle. AND to get off the last few pounds that have crept back on. Time for me to go workout! Love you all!

My mom passed yesterday. I am sorry for my kind of melt down yesterday.

They say she had a seizure in the ER and then was just gone. She was DNR. But they sadi she did not suffer, I am glad for that. And that she is with dad. I am happy and  sad at the same time. I sure wanted her to get to see you on here, but it never happened.

I don’t think I could  get thru this without all of you. Ted is really stepping up to the plate, too. He took over yesterday, a good thing.

I have lots of calls to make, but I needed some down time first, so I came here. I will do a workout in a bit, too.

I am so gald we took those decorations to mom. That really meant alot to her.

She got to wear her new jammies at least once.

I know she and dad and all our family are having a party up there.

I know she tried to hang on but I think her body gave out.

Ted says this is prob for the best, she wasn’t happy and he hated to see us both in so much pain. I know he is right, but I still miis her and dad, too.

Well, I am ok, I will be ok, I do have all my God sent support. I love you all. Thanks for all the prayers and support.

The nursing home called. They took mom in AGAIN to the ER. She is having chest tightness and shortness of breath. Yes, I am concerned, but I am tired, worn out from all of this, I want to just run away. Plus the ER won’t tell me anything over the phone, I fought with them last time over that. I am going to go see her, but not till tomorrow nite. I am just tired, and feeling abit depressed now. Seems when I start to feel better, something else happens. Sorry for being a downer. We need prayers, me for endurance. love you guys.

Well, firmly back at it today!! How are you all? I had Ted hide the rest of the treats(or else I would have given them away at work). And I got up and did my cardio max , and I have all my meals planned!! Time to get back with it! I am real motivated today, too.

I know this week will be kinda tough, but I have decided to keep my New Years celebration healthy, so I will be getting some healthy munchies, any ideas?

Update on mom, still awaiting the final decision from AHCCCS, I faxed over the last document today. I did speak to the dr, and he is checking out her foot swelling, and putting her on a stronger antidepressant. She did have some chest pains, but is better now. On the upside, I heard from a long lost cousin this morning, suprised me!

So, I am glad that Christmas is over, it was tough. I am ready to look forward to a better year.

The best gift I got was all off my dear buddies!

Oh and let me tell you, Ted is so addicted to the Rock Hero game, lol. I haven’t even gotten to play yet, and he said his fingers and thumbs are sore and numb, lol

Ok, gotta run, I will be back at lunch!

Well, how was your Christmas? Ours was good, but yes, my emotions did finally take over. Ted and I went to a Christmas eve service, and boy, it all hit me, dad being gone and mom in the nursing home. I think I have had enough sugar for a lifetime! I am committing to you all to get back on track NOW, Who is with me?

Well Christmas was goo,d we did have to replace our PS 2, it was burned out. But we got it, and Ted loves his game, I haven’t gotten to play it yet, lol. He says his thumbs are sore from trying to unlock all the songs!

We took mom’s gifts up to her, and some food, she liked that, but didn’t eat very much.

Christmas day we just relaxed, and then made dinner, we opened our gifts on Christmas Eve. I got some new clothes, and some movies, some pretty glass candle holders, too, and we got some gift cards for a couple of restaurants, which we used one Friday nite to go out with some friends. Was nice, but I was very bad.

One thing I can be proud of, I stuck with an hour a day of workouts, I feel good about that, Tjose 8 pound weights kick butt!

Well, it was good and sad at the same time, I kept seeing things, lights and all, and thinking of how dad would have liked it. I miss him so much and well, it is just not like it uesed to be, mom baking and dad cutting up. It was hard, but I got thru it.

I hope you all had a wondeful one, and that all your wishes came true. I missed being here, but was so busy.

I also went with my friend, Lynne to another cat show yesterday, was fun, but I was so tired, I almost fell asleep in my chair, LOL.

Her cat didn’t win, but we had a good time anyways.

Well need to go do weigh in, love you and have a great Sunday!

Here is wishing all my dear buddies, a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

How are you all?

I am doing good, did lots of baking last nite, and I think I did well, I did have a little, but nothing like I used to!

Ok, I want to say that 8 lb weights are hard, but I love it! I do like a challenge.

I have decided to do what I did for Thanksgiving, enjoy my food but in moderation.

We can all do that, right? not let our addictions control us and make our selves sick. We want to enjoy the holiday, and we can’t do that if we make our selves sick. I am gonna hold on to that thought.

I do hope each and everyone of you, has the best Christmas ever, and that you all get time for a Silent Night of Peace.

Love you all!

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Some people can’t see them?

And here is an awesome article I found! I can so relate. Not peanut butter, but I am like that with baked goods!

Have a wonderful day, buddies!

The Overeating Epidemic

My name is Maura, and I’m an addict. My substance of choice isn’t as dangerous as heroin or cocaine. No, my habit is…peanut butter. I feel shaky and out of sorts every morning until I get my fix, ideally on whole wheat toast with blueberry jam. In emergencies, however, I spoon it straight from the jar.

But there’s more to it than that. See, I can get kind of crazy about it. My last boyfriend started calling me a PB junkie after witnessing some of my peculiar behaviors: I keep a stash of no fewer than three containers in my cupboard — backups for when I finish the one in the fridge. I showed up for my first weekend at his apartment with Trader Joe’s Creamy and Salted in my overnight bag. And I stuck a jar in the glove compartment before we set off on our first road trip. “What gives?” he asked. I told him I’d have a meltdown if I ever ran out. “You’re addicted!” he retorted. I laughed; wasn’t that a little extreme? The next morning, I waited until he was in the shower before digging yet another container of PB out of my luggage and sneaking a few spoonfuls.

My ex was onto something. Startling new research has found that the way some people respond to food is very similar to the way substance abusers react to the drugs they’re hooked on. Additionally, a number of experts believe that the level of food addiction in the United States may be epidemic. “Overeating and obesity kill at least 300,000 Americans every year due to diseases such as diabetes, heart disease, and cancer,” says Mark Gold, MD, of the division of addiction medicine at the University of Florida College of Medicine in Gainesville. “While no one knows exactly how many of those people might be food addicted, we estimate it’s half of the total.”

Women may be at the greatest risk: 85 percent of those who join Overeaters Anonymous are female. “Many of our members will say they’re obsessed with food and that they think constantly about what they’ll have next,” says Naomi Lippel, the organization’s managing director. “They also talk about eating until they’re in a fog — until they’re essentially intoxicated.”

Take Angela Wichmann of Miami, who used to overeat until she couldn’t think straight. “I could eat almost anything compulsively,” says Angela, 42, a real-estate developer who tipped the scales at 180 pounds. “I’d buy junk food and eat it in the car or consume it at home in secrecy. My favorites were crunchy things like M&M’s or chips. Even crackers would do the trick.” She always felt shame and regret afterward, but says, “I was embarrassed that I couldn’t control myself. In most areas of my life I’ve been able to achieve anything I set my mind to — I have a PhD, and I’ve run a marathon. Kicking my eating problem was another story entirely.”

Well, let me do a run down: Friday nite, boy did I shop. I got all the stuff for Christmas, Ted is cooking and we will take mom some. I also got my weights(boy what a difference with 8 lbs), I got 3 movies. Prince Caspian, Mamma mia, and the new Mummy. I shopped til I dropped, literally, lol

Then yesterday, my best friend Linda came over and we shopped some more, I got 2 now outfits for work, got my tattoo, and then we ate, and took Christmas decorations to mom. We decorated her room while she was at dinner, you should have seen her face! That was a gift in itself!

She is better, but still real weak, she had a fall this morning, but they said she is ok, she just tries to do too much herself.

Ok, tats do hurt, but it is so worth it! Feels like a sunburn today, but I am keeping Eucerin on it. The guy did a good job, and he only charged me half! Was normally $180, but he charged me $90! I will go back for sure, maybe next year.

So, I am doing so so with my eating , only ate 2 times yesterday, was too busy, but I did have a good power scult work out. Break today, a good thing since I am so sore. I can’t even wear my bra till tomorrow!

Well, I need to run and finish weigh in, Love you all!