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Drank too much coffee last nite, but Ted and I got the tree up. He did the lights, and it looks great! It is a comfort using mom and dad’s tree, and I had something special happen, at least it seemed that way to me. I found 2 ornaments I had never seen before, one is a pheasant(dad’s favorite bird) and a red cardinal (mom’s favorite) was like they are there blessing the tree. Lots of memories hung on that tree, some of the ornaments are older than I am(now that is old, lol) But I love it, and as much as I wasn’t sure I wanted to celebrate this year, now I am glad. A good friend told me it would be good for me to carry on the traditions, and I think dad would like that.

I am still undecided about cards, and I still need to do thank you cards, just need to find time to do it.

Please pray we find homes (at least temporary) for mom’s 2 cats. Need to get her stuff out of her apartment.

Ok, now for my good news! I am getting a raise in January, and we will get $500.00 Christmas bonus this year!!!

I am real excited about that. Oh and another prayer request, Ted’s daughter wants him to come to see her at Christmas, but he doesn’ty have the money, and I won’t get my bonus in time, plus I may need to help mom with it.

So, much as I want Ted here, if he can go, I think he should, it is his daughter after all. And the holidays are hard for him since he can’t see her.

Anyways, that is what is new here, I survived yesterday without getting anymore pie, and I will not have any today, either. I did do my cardio max workout, that is a tough one!

Good luck to all the teams weighing in! Don’t forget to report your results to Dr Marc’s blog!

Hugs to you all!

Did you all have a nice Thanksgiving? I sure did. But the sad thing is that mom was to sick to go with us, so I took her a plate. But we had a real good time! Thank God I worked out first, but I did not get my walk in after, was too busy visiting and all.

I confess, kinda fell off plan. That evil pumpkin pie. I still have most of one in the fridge, so I am gonna take it to work on Monday, and let them have it. I had 2 peices yesterday and some cookies, but got up this morning with a new resolve. Going to do my workout as soon as I get done here.

Took dad’s ashes to the cemetery yesterday, that was really hard but I am glad it is done, felt like some closure, he is at the National Cemetery and he will get the respect he deserves.

Mom is coming along slowly, but she just doesn’t see why she can’t come home.

But she can’t. I am tryiong to find a temporary home for her 2 cats, they are 12 years old, and very sweet, but I am not sure how they will act without mom, they never come out, but they do eat ok. I will take her bird here, and we will put her stuff in storage till we see what she can have, and then Ted and I will take the excess.

So that is our plan, it is getting there slowly.

I am back on plan too, not going to let all this derail me.

So how are all of you?? I really pushed to be on today, and yes, I will be here for weigh in you all!

Big hugs, Kama

I won’t be on tomorrow, so sending this now!

I sure hope you all have a wonderful one. We will pick up mom and go to a good friend’s house, I am picking up 2 pies to take.

I am with Shan on how I will do tomorrow’s meal. I will enjoy but not to the point of stuffing myself. And do a workout in the morning, and (Thanks, Mark) do a walk after.

Ok, I want to list some things I am thankful for:

1. My Lord and Saviour, who has EVERYTHING in my life firmly in HIs control.

2. My mother is still with me, and I have Ted, and my daughter, I am VERY greatful for that.

3. My awesome awesome network of friends which of course includes all of you!!

4. My health having been restored.

5. I feel better and prob look better than I ever have.

6. Good job

7. roof over my head and food and clothes

8. 4 loving little furry “Kids” that Ted and I dearly love.

9. this awesome country we live in.

10. Our service people who protect it.

This is off the top of my head. but I wanted to focus on being thankful and keep my mind off the negative.

Have a great one and I love you all so much!

Real quick have to share what happened this morning. I was in the car, driving to work and doing my normal worrying and stressing over all this stuff with mom and all. And on the radio, ( I listen to a Christian station in the mornings) came on a testimony about a girl with anorexia, and her mom had been praying for her and how the song “The Voice of Truth: ministered to her and she was being healed. This is one of my fave songs, too.

Anyways the speaker said how it is so awesome that God is still on His throne and in control and still working miracles. And I teared up, because then I KNEW, no matter how chaotic life is right now, that it would be ok, ‘Cause God is controlling ALL of it.

I had to share that.

Love you all, have a good one!

Things are better!! Ted got home and we talked alot. We have to do more talking, but so far so good. We may eventually move to Seattle!! He may get a teaching job there. His dream is to work with special needs kids, and he has a real gift for it. Plus, we both think I would love it there, and he says there are alot of jobs. So, he is gonna help me get mom all taken care of, and we will see what happens.

He was soooo glad to see me, and he acts like a new man, I think this break is what we needed. So I am on top of the world this morning!

Didn’t workout, He and I were up too late talking, and I have to go see mom tonite, so will just do my crunches tonite,( yes Nancy, will add some extra kinds, thanks!)

I will do a good one tomorrow.

My goal for the week is to eat real healthy, work hard on my workouts, and enjoy the holiday in MODERATION.

Gotta run, love you all, have a wonderful day!

Hi buddies, sorry I did not make it back on yesterday. I got invieted to a party at my sponsor’s house and I felt like I needed to get out and have some fun. I’m glad I went, I was there until late last nite, so I am a bit tired.

My eating has been off, I was good till the party, then fell off. I di do an hour workout yesterday, and I am sore. But it felt so good to laugh and cut up, and I really enjoyed it.

How is everyone? All ready for Thanksgiving? We are going to a good friend’s house, just gonna pick up a pie to take, just not into doimg all that cooking right now. I am sure I will show a gain, but my plan is to workout as much as possible all week including that day, too.

Well, I have to go back to the airport tonite, to pick up Ted. Honestly not sure where our relationship is at right now, so please be praying for me on that, we may have to part ways.

I feel the time is right for that, possibly, there are things that have not been right with us for awhile, and as much as I love him, I feel we both deserve to be happy. And this is not cutting it. I am not going to go into bashing him, he has helped me alot, but the boyfriend/girlfriend relationship is just not there, and has not been there for awhile. I do not hate him I still ove im very much, but I can’t do this anymore.

Plus with all the stuff going on with mom, I just can’t think too clear, I just have to take it one day at a time.

One thing for certain, I am not gonna stop my workouts and my endeavors to be as healthy as possible, I had an eating relapse at the party, and then Lynne took me out to lunch today. I felt like I deserved it. I am so tired, and all this is getting to me.

Thank God I have you all to talk to, I would really lose it if I didn’t.

I had a good session with my therapist, and she says the best thing I do for myself besides my diet and exercise is talk to you all. I agree with her, you all are so helping me heal from al lof this, I am way stronger than when I started, and no longer afraid to be alone, if I have to be.

I picked up dad’s ashes yesterday, that was rough, I almost broke down in the post office, I did break down in the car. But you know? I felt dad’s presence in the car with me, and I was talking to him, I have his ashes on my dresser, mom and I will take them to be placed in the National cemetery, since dad was a vet.

Mom is doing better, her blood sugar was lower, she will be prob placedin assisted care soon, the dr does not want her living alone anymore, and I agree.

So alot going on.

Well, I need to go and read blogs, and check email and post. Don’t worry about me I have all my God sent angels(you) around me and I will be ok, Love you all so much!

Well I am spending my evening doing a huge laundry! So I thought I would come on and say hi.

What is everyone up to?

I am going to finish my laundry and maybe watch a movie soon.

I sure appreciate all the prayers! Now we are just waiting on the Lord to work. I did place some calls to some assistance places, but I have to wait till  Monday to find out anything.

But mom called and said the social worker is going to call me next week. They will NOT release her to go back home alone, will have to be to  assisted living, I am actually releived, not if we can just her moved ok.

I am so thankful you all are bearing with me all this has nothing to do with weight loss.

I need to get back to that subject.

A good friend listed in an email today, the things she liked and disliked about overweight vs weight loss. Was a great list.

Some of my dislikes about losing weight are:

Too much loose skin

My “girls” don’t fill out their homes anymore!

Hmmm, ok, can’t think of anymore, lol

Likes:

No more breathlessness and chest pain when I walk any distance.

Way more endurance

I can fit into small seats on the bus, and movie theaters!

I don’t get hit on be geeks anymore(thanks for this one, Nancy!)

Way more self confident in public, I don’t feel like people are staring at the “fat girl”

Not nearly as nervous meeting new people.

These are just some of the positives that come to mind.

How about you? I think we get so caught up in life that we forget what we are doing, and why.

Can we take time to refocus?

I have found that my joy in doing this health journey was slipping and it was starting to feel like drudgery. But I am NOT going to let that happen. I LOVE being healthy and feeding my body what it really needs.

My life and circumstances will have to step out of the way, I am reclaiming what is mine, a fit, healthy body, that is what I/we all deserve, so let’s not let anything steal it away.

Ok, not sure where that outburst came from, but it wanted out. So forgive my rambling. I just needed to babble to my buddies. Love you all!

Ok, gotta go get my clothes out of the dryer!

Well they are mailing me a packet for the financial document for mom’s AHCCCS, but looks like she will get it ok.

But, it takes 45 days. Sooo, I have to call her complex and let them know. Please be praying that they will work with us.

Alot still up in the air, so please pray, thanks!

I am in a hurry, so will make this fast, and read blogs later.

First of all, I am on the losing side again, lost a pound! That is not alot, but for me I am so happy that it is going down again.

Oh, and my kitty (Chaos) came thru his surgery with flying colors, the vet said he is a healthy boy!

Please pray for mom, she won’t get her money for at least another 30 days, not sure what we will do about the rent and car payment.

I have a phone interview for her with State AHCCCS at lunch, I am hoping they can do something.

Gotta run, you all have a great day!!

Hey buddies!! My poor kitty is getting neutered today:( A good thing though, because this should keep him from wanting to roam and also leave our girl kitty alone, lol.

Well thanks for all the support yesterday, am just trying to leave it with God right now. I can’t do anything at present. I have my hands full enough.

Mom is doing better, but her blood sugar is still way too high.

I am proud to say I did Jillian’s level 3 today, want to get back to my normal level of workouts! Yeah!

Well, I have to go pick up dad’s ashes on Saturday, too, not sure how I will feel about that.

Sorry if my thoughts are scattered, having to write this quick.

How are you all doing? Hugs, Kama