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I tried to copy the cover, has a beautiful pic of an eagle and the verses Romans 10:13 and Isaiah 40:31 on the cover.

Here is the inside:

One night I dreamed a dream:I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma. “Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But I’m aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don’t understand why, when I need You most, You leave me.”

He whispered, “My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.”            ~ Mary Stevenson
 

For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.                     ~ Romans 10:13
 

My morning has been crazy busy!

How are you all? Well, trying to design a program for dad’s memorial. Need to have it done to take to the printers on Saturday. Any ideas welcome.

I’m doing ok, just real tired all the time. Didn’t get up early enough to work out, so I will tonite.

Food wise, doing better. Resisted the urge to binge big time last nite, very happy about that.

Well, I love you all, time to go post, I will try and read blogs today, if I can. Been in a rush all day. Hugs!

Wow, you people are amazing. The support I get here is so much more than Diet related. I don’t know how to thank you all.

Mom feels the same. So many of you have helped in all different ways. I am amazed, humbled, touched, awed. I love you all.

We are doing ok. It is rough, but we are getting thru it. Almost have the memorial service done.

For those of you who want to know it will be on 11/1/08 at 10 am, I will prob have to speak, so pray I will get thru it.

The address is: Cathedral Christian Center, 16635 N. 51st Ave. Glendale, AZ 85306.

Still working on programs, will take them to the printer Saturday.

I am hanging in there, thank God for workouts, My eating is so so, I start off good, but this fatigue is awful, my therapist said it is normal. But is is hard to eat right when I feel like that, but will try harder.

So how are you all today? Good I hope. Good luck to the weight loss teams! I need to go and report in! Love you all!

Had alot of calls to make yesterday, arrangements for dad and had to use my lunch to do it.

How are we today?

I feel much better, and I have to admit, alot of it is due to you all. I am receiving such incredible love and support that is amazing, you guys are wonderful!

Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t find good people on the internet, that is soooo wrong!

I have found the best people ever, and I thank God for you all.

Doing better, got my house all in order last nite, and did a good workout this morning. I am sore, but it is a good sore.

I feel more drive to stay on track today than I have in awhile.

Oh and thanks Jenn, for saying I have a “sexy brain” never heard that before,

Ok, I need to go post, love you all!

Use Measurements Besides the Scale
What’s So Motivating about Numbers Anyway?  

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Wanted to say hi real quick, I am doing better today! Did my workout and firmly on plan, too!

Thanks for all the support and kicks!

How are you today?

Well will talking to mom’s pastor today, too. To make arrangements.

Well gotta run, busy at work, have a great day!

I think. Back to work, and trying to focus my fuzzy head.

I truly thank how much you all believe me, but I have to be honest. I crashed and burned yesterday evening and this morning too. I feel sick. I had a Angus burger at Burger King, the mushroom swiss one, and onion rings. Then this morning, I had already had my breakfast and they brought in bagels and cream cheese for employee appreciation week. It will be a food fest all week.

I did not even workout this morning and will not get to tonite ’cause we have to tear our apartment apart for the pest control tomorrow. Too much going on. So hopefully, life will be back to normal by Wednesday. Not going to give in to this, I just saw some pics last nite, of me that mom had for awhile, and one word: SCARY!!

I will NOT let myself go back to that, EVER.

Ok, having trouble coping with this greif stuff, so going to see my counselor on Friday. My attitude at home is not making my relationship any better. Ted is greiving, too.

So, yeah maybe I am a little angry after all. Not at dad or mom, but the situation itself.

So, see? I am human, I do fall. I just had to let you all know.

Ok you all have a good day, I love you guys.

I mean REALLY back. Time to get a fresh resolve. Time to quit saying “I can’t”. No more of that. I am my father’s daughter, and I will continue to strive to make him proud.

Mom is doing some better, she is a very strong woman, her blood sugar has been real good, too.

We still haven’t gone thru dad’s pics yet, we are going to today, we are planning his memorial on 10/27, tentatively, I have to call their pastor tomorrow so he can look at his calendar.

I did look online for an urn, boy, are they expensive! I did find one for $75.00, a nice one, so I may split the cost with mom. Going to see if our pastor has some guidance on the memorial planning, too.

Bu ok, I mean it you all. I owe it to my self, dad, mom and all of you. I am not gonna let this throw me into a depression, or my old ways of eating.

I had a final meltdown yesterday, and I just let myself cry. I was drained after. but I think it helped. I woke up feeling alot stronger.

So, with that being said, I want to throw myself into this even stronger than before.

Thanks for all your support, I love you all, I can’t say that enough.

I want to give back to you all what you have given to me.

Hugs, Kama

How is everyone?

I am ok, have ups and downs, but then I come on here and am blown away by all the love and support I get from you all! I sure love each and everyone of you.

Well today I was going to go to mom’s and work on dad’s stuff, but mom called and just didn’t fell up to it. So we are gonna try again tomorrow. We HAVE to do it at some point.

It is all so overwhelming, not even sure where to go or how to go about a memorial service. I do have some ideas a friend emailed to me. But the problem is also very LITTLE money to work with.

Will be even less next month. Mom still gets dad’s pension and his SS# but not hers, so she will be losing about $400.00 a month. She will have to move to be able to make it. Seems so unfair, but that is the law. We wanted to move her to this complex, but the pet deposit for 2 cats is $400.00!! None of us have that.

Sooo, not sure how it will all work. Plus even the bare minimum of memorial expenses are high, even the obits? I may try and pay for the obit myself, when I get paid.

Plus, we would love to have my daughter come out for it, but again, no one has the money.

Well, God will have to take care of this.

I was feeling so overwhelmed today, I went to my church and prayed with one of the pastors. She reminded me of something I should have remembered. I need to stop saying ” I can’t do this” and remember that in Christ I can. His strength is made great thru our weakness.

Also she said that when I need a hug from my dad to ask God to give me one. That was so awesome. God is our heavenly father after all, so I’m sure He can meet that need.

Well, sorry for venting above. But I wanted to get it all out. I am determined to trust God in all of this ,and step back and let Him work.

Well as for me diet wise, eating some better, making more of an effort. And keeping up my workouts. Did not workout today, as this is my break day from workouts.

Thanks all of you who said I am strong, I sure don’t feel it, and if I am, I sure give God the glory.

Love you all, I will try and get some blogs read tonite and Sunday.

Oh and the coolest thing today? I went to see Nicole, and she is doing great after having her precious baby girl!

She says the baby is doing better too, and they hope to have her home soon!

Well, it has been a busy and exhausting week.

Mom was here till yesterday. She is doing ok, her blood sugar is better sicne we went to the dr and he adjusted her insulin schedule.

We will have dad’s memorial the end of the month. Will give us time to get pics together and get his ashes back. There has been alot to do and numbers to call. I am off work till Monday.

Going to mom’s tomorrow to got thru dad’s things. We started to the the other day, and we just couldn’t.

I am ok, diet wise, have lost some of the weight I gained. My appetitite goes up and down.

Been working out though.

Thanks for your prayers and support. At least dad is at peace and not suffering. I feel him all around me.

Love you all, Kama