Morning buddies
I know you must be sick of my depressing blogs, but I need to get this out.
Yes, I am angry, depressed, and tired of all of this greiving. Mom is not doing well healthwise, and I don’t know how to help her. The service is Saturday, and I don’t need her to fall apart on me now.
Too much to be done, and I have to work too. Ok, I know I am whining.
I feel overwhelmed by it all. Seems never ending. And my work just expects me to go on and focus, and I can’t.
I tried to do a challenge with Anj, and I can’t even seem to focus on that. Where did I go?
I do my workouts at least, it keeps my brain busy for a while, but I don’t sleep well, and my concentration is zero.
Sorry to be so depressing.
Was supposed to go for dinner with mom and my cousins tonite, but mom just canceled.
I need to get some stuff done tonite, anyways, and I just don’t feel like being social right now.
Mom needs to check out the apartments that go according to her income, but she doesn’t feel up to it, and I can’t, due to work.
Ok, enough moaning, I just had to vent. How are you all?
My weight seems stable at 138, 3 pounds up from goal, I’m grateful it is not more.
Ok, now that I dumped on you, I need to go. I will be back at lunch. Love you all, Kama
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Hey Kama, dont beat yourself up over not being superily motivated at the moment. You’re still grieving, so it’s perfectly normal. At least you’ve got your workouts still going. A bit of exercise like that will really help your mood. And you’re so close to goal…. keep going the way you’re going. You’re doing great
it’s so okay to say and feel all of this - if you didn’t we’d be worried. mom may fall apart it is a huge loss, and everything may be spinning out of control right now, but remember it is just for right now. you are not gone, you are just dealing as best you can. i am so sorry - i bet you are sick of all of this! try and keep writing and praying and you won’t lose you! hugs!!!!!!!!!!
Venting is good. Sometimes you just need that and to get it off your shoulders. At least your still working out. I think that’s an accomplishment because I would have probably brushed that off quick. Just hang in there and lean on others during this time. I learned that it helps. Take care of yourself.
dont worry
vent on us all you like 
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I never get tired of your blogs. It’s great therapy Kama. On top of that, we love you and want to support you through this grieving process.
I’m sorry your mom is not doing too well but I don’t blame her. She lost her husband and it’s hard for the both of you.
Can you take a vacation sweetie? Do you have time left? I think you need to get away for a while.
Keep venting - it helps! Love ya!
Sweetie, there is nothing wrong or abnormal about how you’re feeling. Vent away! It’s good for you to have an outlet to help you get rid of it all. Everything you’re going through right now is extremely difficult. Dealing with a loss of this magnitude and everything that it touches, it’s hard! I know it’s hard to do right now, but try and keep in mind that even all of this will pass. Grieving is such an emotional roller coaster ride. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself and your family…the rest of it can wait. Us here, losing weight, getting fit…we’re not going away.
Love you! ***hugs***
Vent is the best thing for you to do right now. If not, it will build on you and then you will fall apart. Your mother will need time. But, be prepared, she may fall apart,everyones emotions are different. I’m praying for you and your entire family
Kama, I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Your Mom too.
**Vent any time you like!!!! It’s healthy!
Okay, here is some tough love. Ready? Stop apologizing! Girl, you got so much going on right now and for as much support as you have given people here the last thing any of us are thinking is that we are sick of you and your blogs. Now, with all of that being said…You are going to have a rough few days ahead of you, but that doesn’t mean that you have to be the strong one. If you need to go into another room and scream your head off then do it. Just keep remembering your fantastic girls weekend you have coming up and how much fun you will have. Sure things look very bleak and dark right now…but there is a light. God doesn’t leave people in the dark for long.
Love you!