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I am not ready for this. The social worker from the hospital where dad is called and the dr wants me and mom to come in tomorrow morning for a conference. They said dad is not doing well, and we need to make some decisions. I am just sick inside. Poor mom. I will be with her tomorrow.

But as for me, buddies, this is my dad, my rock,  the one who has always been there. We have had our ups and downs, but we have always loved each other. I worship the ground he walks on! I can’t let him go. I am just not ready, but we may not even have that choice.

And mom needs him too. I feel this may really break her.

Sorry, I need to get this all out. How do you stop the flood of memories? I keep seeing my dad in all different times, taking me fishing, we used to go out and eat once a year at Christmas, we would go shopping for mom’s gift and then have a father/daughter date.

He loved to buy me nice dresses and things for my birthday. He had a beautiful piece of Turquoise handcut into a necklace for me when I was in high school. I still have it.

He loves westerns,  so it was kinda natural we moved to Arizona, he liked to dress like a cowboy, His favorite watch has a silver and turqoise on it.

Ok, Im rambling, I could never do my dad justice. All the memories are just flooding in.

I just don”t know how to do this at all…..

Just heard from the dr. It is confirmed. Dad had a significant stroke. His speech, vision and possibly thinking abilities are affected. The dr said he seems to be alert and cognitive of his surroundings. He also said dad hopefully can regain his speech, etc in the following weeks with therapy. Hopefully. He may need a feeding tube, too. But not sure yet.

The dr said the stroke affected the back part of dad’s brain, the occipital lobe/brain stem.

Wanted you all to know. Thanks for the prayers and support. I am ok, just still numb. I took a long walk yesterday to clear my head, and wound up with blisters, and had to do my workout in my socks. See, I am still silly.

Love you all, have a blessed day.

Hello buddies. I am completely numb right now. Mom and I got called to the hospital yesterday. Dad is completely unresponsive. His vitals are good, but he won’t wake up, or voluntarily move. They are not sure why, yet. The have done a bunch of test but didn’t know the results yet. I am so scared, I tried to be strong for mom, but I broke down. I just want my dad back, the way he used to be.

So we prayed for him and asked for hom to be healed, and we also asked for God’s will to be done. Neither mom or I are ready to let him go. I know he has held on this long for us. I keep hearing that song “you can let go” in my head, really gets to me each time I hear it.

I am trying to hang in there with my eating, have NOT binged, but I have slipped a little, Had KFC last nite, but stuck to a plate, so I couldn’t have seconds.

I did do my Biggest Loser workout yesterday, the whole 50 minutes, I am real sore, not sure I will be able to get one in today or not.

Well, I need to post, I love you all, and appreciate your prayers. Have a great Sunday.

They think my dad has had another stroke. It will be his 3rd. I have NOT told mom yet. I am waiting for them to call me back with his condition. I am just sick and scared. I wasn’t sure if I would be able to blog this morning. But I did. I need you guys’ prayers.

I am terrified, and if something happens to dad, not sure what will happen to mom.

I am doing good, diet wise, did the Biggest Loser one last nite, and am sore! I only did the first level.

Just wanted to let you know.

Please pray ok, buddies? My dad is my rock and I am not ready to lose him. They said his speech is garbled, he is confused, and leaning to one side.

Love you all, I will keep you posted when I can. Thank you.

Sorry to not be here as much, buddies.

I have been real busy making calls for mom and work has been nuts, too. I will try and get to some blogs this afternoon/

Mom is soso, still battling her blood sugar, and she didn’t want the home health nurses to come out, but I got her convinced to do that.

Sometimes all this feels like more than I can handle, so still need lots of prayers.

Going to go see dad tomorrow nite, too.

As for me? Doing ok, just got the Biggest Loser Cardio max dvd, will try it tonite.

Also reading a good book by Roger Gould about emotional eating, just got it, will let you know how it is. Well need to run and post, love you all!

Well, I guess you all saw my last blog!!

I am soo happy to be healthy, and I want to give God all the glory!

It is still fresh in my mind how sick I was, how I couldn’t even walk short distances without pain, shortness of breath, the works. I felt like I was dying, literally.

People don’t understand why I push so hard, it is because for the first time in my life I CAN!!! No more being told to be quiest ’cause I was too sick to run(I heard this my whole childhood), now I can run, get sweaty, work hard and I love it!

No more knee pain either! Some of you remember I had arthritis in my knee awhile back, well that is gone too!

I am so grateful and thank you to all of you too, I couldn’t have done it without your support.

Now I know that everyone’s bodies don’t respond the same, but let my experience be a challenge to you all. No matter where you are starting from, you CAN change your life for the better!!

Love you all and I will try to read more blogs today!

Ok thank God I can post now! Well, as you all know, I had my complete physical on Friday, well  my dr called me today and said all my blood work is perfect and I NO LONGER HAVE DIABETES!!!!!!!!!!!! I wasn’t even fasting!! Woo hoo!!

See? All that exercise and eating right did pay off!!

And also this is day 2 of no binging!

Sure missed you all today, I hope I can read blogs tomorrow. I just stayed late to write this, I need to catch the bus. Love you all~!!

First, Joyce is really, really good today!

September 21
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control.
—2 Timothy 1:7

“Every athlete who goes into training conducts himself temperately and restricts himself in all things” (1 Corinthians 9:25, emphasis mine). That word all is a difficult concept for us to grasp.

We need to live a disciplined life, physically, spiritually, and emotionally, if we want to enjoy God’s plan for us. The fruit of the Spirit is self-control, and the fruit of the flesh is no control.

Paul said, “I buffet my body [handle it roughly, discipline it by hardships] and subdue it, for fear that after proclaiming to others the Gospel and things pertaining to it, I myself should become unfit [not stand the test, be unapproved and rejected as a counterfeit]” (1 Corinthians 9:27).

I really needed this, in fact the first verse is one of my favorites.

I want to say something, I am sorry if my references to God offend anyone, but this is about me and my journey and it is my online journal. So, I beleive in being completely honest about what is going on with me. I can’t separate my weight loss/health from my walk with God. He made this body, and wants me to take care of it. He is the most important part of every decision I make.

I will not preach to anyone, but will just share what helps me in hopes it will encourage someone else. My job is NOT to ever judge anyone, (that is God’s job, not mine), I mean I am certainly not perfect, and we are all a work in progress. Just know I love you all and we are all in this together.

Well, here is what is going on with me:

We got mom home yesterday, and we got all her meds and groceries. I did real well, I saved $13.00 in coupons on Friday nite for our groceries, and $31.00 on hers!

Plus, we have something else to be thankful for, She got switched to a different insulin, and now she doesn’t have to pay the huge copay! She got all her meds 7 of them and only paid $28.00! Way better than $78.00 for one!

She is doing ok, real weak, she spent the day with us and I am gonna go get her in a bit and bring her over here so I can do her laundry with ours. So it has been a busy weekend.

Bless Ted, he patiently filled all her syringes for her. She is on a sliding scale with her insulin, and it depends on what her blood sugar is as to how much insulin she gets, and we have to prefill these for her, since she can’t see well enough. He did them all! The only ones I did was her nighttime ones and I filled her pill box for the week.

The next thing we want to do is move her to our complex. Still in her own apartment,  but she would be in walking distance. She is happy with that idea, too. Plus move dad to a group home( they are a lot more homey that care centers) and have it be close too. Dad qualifies, and there would be no out of pocket costs. This way mom could keep her car and her indepedence and the rent for a one bedroom here is much lower than she pays now!

So I am excited about it, wil make me feel much better too. And there will always be someone available to help her, Ted during the day, and me at nite and both of us on the weekends, perfect I think, and we can help her go to dr appts, and see dad, etc.

Whew! So how are you all today?

Congrats to all the weight loss teams!

Ok,  I need to go post, thanks for listening, love you all!

This got sent to me in my email. Good object lesson.

of the Garbage Truck

One day I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport. We were
driving in the right lane when suddenly a black car jumped out of a
parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on his
brakes, skidded, and missed the other car by just inches! The driver of
the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us. My taxi
driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was really
friendly. So I asked, ‘Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined
your car and sent us to the hospital!’ This is when my taxi driver
taught me what I now call, ‘The Law of the Garbage Truck.’

He explained that many people are like garbage trucks. They run around
full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of
disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it
and sometimes they’ll dump it on you. Don’t take it personally.
Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. Don’t take their garbage
and spread it to other people at work, at home, or on the streets.
The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take
over their day. Life’s too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so…Love the people who treat you right. Pray for the ones who don’t.
Life is ten percent what you make it and ninety percent how you take it!

Have a blessed, garbage-free day!

Let’s all stop this now. I am so disheartened I want to quit reading. It takes alot to get me mad, but enough is enough. I can’t sit around and see this good place and people I love getting torn up. STOP THIS NOW!

NO more calling people out, ok? We are all here to get and give support, not tear each other down. It is getting ridiculous, and jut plain crazy. I don’t like to offend, but C’mon, are we adults or not? To talk about God in one blog and tear people down in the next just doesn’t seem right!

Ok, yeah, I’m mad and I vented. I love my buddies and don’t want them hurt.

Lets unite and bring this site back to what it should be!