kamaperry

Sorry if I sounded negative earlier. I’m just trying to figure out the new me. I love the results of all my hard work, and I really have found a new passion in life, and that is awesome. And I’m grateful to have very caring people around me. I am going thru another learning time I think. Thanks for listening and all your support!

C’mon and join us if you want to kick start your weight loss efforts! We have fun and support and help keep you motivated! We compete in a weekly challenge with 4 other teams. Come join us! Email me or Molly!

Wanna play with the wildcats?? We have fun and work hard. We compete with the Heartbreakers, the Diamonds, the Rockstars, and the Fitness Fanatics each week.

Looking for serious, motivated people. If you want to join us, email me or Molly!!!!

First of all Congrats to the Heartbreakers for their win!!!

And also thanks for the support on my blog yesterday. Still trying to figure it all out. I have to say my day is not complete unless I check in with you all. But everyone is right, I do need to find a balance. I feel   abit like Ted and my friend just don’t understand how much all this means to me, and I got a little angry yesterday, but I do know they love me and want what is best for me. I do know it is not good for me to be so stressed over it.

So, yesterday, I tried to relax for awhile, and then about 4:00 I felt like such a slug, and I felt anxious for not working out, yet. So I did it. But today is break day for sure.

Ted is also coaching me on my breathing during my workouts, makes a big difference.

so I am trying. Still working to find that balance I can be happy with.

Thanks for all the suggestions. I may need to manage my Buddyslim time better, but I love being here.

So, why is it that we find something we really love and is so good for us and our loved ones, just don’t understand? Ted thinks I am obsessed, but this has really changed my life for the better. I just don’t understand, and my best friend, too. Seems like they are kinda trying to take me away from it, and I’m a little resentful. Sorry buddies had to vent.

I feel like they are trying to direct my life for me, and I resent it a bit. I found myself kinda angry yesterday.

I feel like they are trying to put me back into my old mold, and I just won’t fit it anymore.

I’m a little bit confused. I know all this is good for me, and I am gonna work out only in the mornings, and do some relaxation at nite, and spend time with Ted. He even thinks I should not have to do Buddyslim every weekend. I told him on Sundays I do. And this is fun for me too. and a form of relaxation. Plus I do my journaling on here, and the feed back is alot of times exactly what I need.

Well, thanks for letting me vent, just alot going thru my mind. Love you guys alot.

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Wonder if you all can see that. My best friend wants to give me an mp3 player!! So I will finally have one, the next step will be learning how to use, lol. I;m all thumbs when it comes to that stuff.

Well, I have a real concern I need input on.

Ted and I had a long talk last nite. He is worried that I’m burning myself out. I’m worried about that too.

This is my typical day: Wake up at 4:15. have my devotions, get my stuff ready for work, do my 20 minute plus workout. Then shower and get dressed to leave by 6:30. Then I work from 7:15 to 4:15. hour lunch(which I spend on here with you all :)), thne I take the bus home( takes about an  hour and a half) then when I get home, takes me about an hour to calm down. When I walk in the door, it is the pets, and then I have to get my clothes ready for work, pack my lunch and fix dinner. Then do my nite workout. By the time I am done, I’m exhausted. Very little free time and/or time with Ted.

Then on the weekends, I spend alot of time on here, and do a long workout after on Saturdays. Sundays are either laundry or grocery shopping on alternate weekends.\

See why I am so excited to have 3 days off??

I am not complaing, but I want to find balance. I also help mom alot too.

But I have very little time with Ted or friends, or to work on my beads, or just sit and chill and be me.

Can you all help? How do you all manage it?

Don’t worry not quitting but don’t want to burn out either.

The second thing is this: I really worry about not letting anyone down. I feel like I have this “image” to protect. But I want you all to know I’m only human, and if I can do this, than ANYONE can. You just have to want to bad enough, have to be concerned enough for your health and being around for your loved ones. I don’t feel like I am a “super” anything, just a person who wants to be healthy and help others real bad. I so appreciate all the compliments and kudos, I really get overwhelmed.

I love you all dearly, and my life is so much better having found you.

I hope this all wasn’t confusing, just alot on my heart. Ok, gotta go post, love you all!!

Quote of the Day
“If you spend your whole life waiting for the storm, you’ll never enjoy the sunshine.”
– Morris West

Especially after my good news!!! Love you guys! I’m still floating!!!

I had to come on and share my good news!!! Most of you know my battles with my student loan people. Well, I am mailing the check to them today and they called me this morning and told me they have accepted my monthly payment amount. They went over my expenses and found out I really couldn’t afford to pay more. She also said it was amazing because they almost never accept an amount that low!!!!!!!!!!!! God really answers prayers! So I pay this amount for 10 months and with the check I am sending today, and after that the loan will be rehabilitated and off my credit! Then they will work with me even more!! Wooo Hooo!!! I’m soooooo happy!

Thanks for ALLLLLLLLLLL your prayers!!!!! Love you all!

Just got call from the student loan people. They are working on the papers I sent to help qualify me for a reduced monthly payment. They asked how much I could pay. I told them $75.00. Please pray they agree to it, thanks!!

Busy again, but had to say Hi!! I am still doing good, did my workout and staying op!! My day goes better if I check in with you all no matter how quick in the morning!

Have you all tried the sugar free puddings put ourt by Cozy Shack? Only 90 cals and is either rice pudding or tapioca, and they are awesome! I put the tapioca over fresh fruit with a bit of splenda and it is wonderful! Had to pass that on.

Ok, gotta go, b ut I will be back later!

How are we buddies?? I’m doing good! Wore my brace last nite, have to get used to that.

Well, I did my workout with Jillian with my new 5 lb weights! Wow! Big difference! Plus I went for a quick swim last nite to cool off. Was 108 here yesterday!

Well, I have to keep this short to go post, you all have a great one!