Growing pains
First of all, Good Morning!
Feeling kind of retrospective today. Want to take time to collect my thoughts. Seems like I never have enough time during the week to say what is really on my heart. So, I have decided at least once a week to really do some serious sharing, so please bear with me.
First thing, this is my plan for the day: to stay op all day, and work out with my man Billy doing the long Basic Bootcamp dvd, and then the last 4 of my team challenges, then I’m gonna go thru all my clothes and get rid of the big stuff. Then hopefully will have some time to work on my hobbies. Tomorrow after weigh in and food shopping, I’m hoping Ted and I can go out for dinner some where nice, so I can wear my new black dress!
Well, I was thinking back to this whole last year. I’m amazed at where I am, and how much I have changed, truly mind blowing! I really love and support all of you and very grateful for all yourlove and supprt! You listen and love me even when I rant and rave! LOL
But, I am a work in progress and always will be sure not perfect, but I’m always trying to improve. You know the old saying “please be patient, God isn’t finished with me yet” That is for sure me. But I am growing and learning each day. This is truly an incredible journey isn’t it?
I think back to where I have been and come from and I’m amazed I’m still here. I don’t even recognize the person I used to be, and the choices I made. Thank God I don’t have to make those same choices today, nor do I want to. It is not always easy, I am only human, and sometimes I want to revert back to my old ways, but I’m thankful I now know where to turn for help.
Went to a meeting last nite. Stress was really getting me down. The one thing about looking and feeling so good is it makes you not so content to just sit at home! That didn’t used to bother me, but I do kinda miss the nite life! That is a dangerous way for me to feel. Good thing I don’t want the calories of even a beer! No, no, no, that would be opening the door wide to my past, and I won’t go there. So, instead of going to a bar, I went with my good friend Kevin to a meeting and then home and talked it out withTed. So, I’m in a much better frame of mind this morning. Been doing alot more praying too, and have been turning my efforts inward to work on my self image and what Dr. Phil call “my authentic self” it is fascinating! But, I have along ways to go. But like weight loss, it is one step, one day at a time. Slow and steady, but I will get there.
Mom and dad are holding steady, learning to deal with aging parents is new to me, hard to see people who have been so strong and self reliant all my life start to fail. But again I do what I can, and have to leave the rest in God’s hands, He can handle it so much better than me.
Well, I guess that is it for now, you all have a great day, and GOOD LUCK to all the weight loss teams!! GO WILDCATS!!!
Love you all, thanks for listening, Big Hugs, Kama
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Kama, that’s the least we can do for someone always there for us ! I wish you luck on your self journey and your diet journey ! Yes , I agree God works things better than we ever could ! I don’t always understand it all but really I don’t have to ! Remember what an incredible person you are ! I hope you get wear your black dress soon ! Kimmi
Hi, Honey. Aren’t you thrilled we don’t have to go back to the old ways of doing things. We can slip a little, but then back on plan. It will work out with Mom and Dad. You’ve done all you can, you were there for them, time and time again. Those years just come to all of us and I wish I had someone to be as good to me as you are to them. You are doing a great job. I can feel your changes through your blogs over the months. Let go and let God, but row like crazy for shore, too. Take care, Love, Marge
Good luck on both your journeys and with your parents. Life is always changing thing… wether we want it to or not. So keep up the changes and keep up the good work.
NIce to hear what’s going on for you. You have come a long way baby and you seem to be noticing what is dangerous for you. old habits and triggers die hard - the new ones keep getting stronger tho. wonderful being part of the journey. you are amazing. AND you sound like such a fabulous daughter to your folks, so filled with love and support for them, i can’t imagine anything making them happier. hugs!
I have date with our man Billy today as well.
Glad to hear your parents are doing o.k.
Good job on going to a meeting and not a bar. Go Kama Go Kama. I am so proud of you and everything you have accomplished. You have been a great buddy to me and I just wanted to say thank you for all of your encouraging words and the fine a$$ men you send me on Friday’s. Girl I just love them. My mouth waters and the libido starts flowing. YUM YUM YUM.
Have a great day!
Hey he’s not your man kama but you can have himif it makes you feel better! Great job going to a meeting and know that I am so very proud of you. Just sitting here going through blogs that i have missed and reading through before my 6:00 a.m. workout!